Just read a tweet from a twitter friend having a problem with her Lola, according to my conclusion, Her grand mother are in the passing of age, where,, an old people misbehave and hating all things he/she didn't want to see or let me say he/she didn't want to exist.
Just like my story..... ahmmmmmm, I've been silently not telling this kind of things to my friends, and I do not have a plan to say tho. But here, I will elaborate.
I've experienced something like that before, at first, i think, my grand mother didn't like my mother at all, she bash her, do things that hurt my feelings when I see.
And there comes a time, as far as I remember, happened when I was at Grade 6. Because of all the fights and turned words, we decided to left the house.
If you know the feeling, it's really painful, it's really tearing you apart, and the words she speaks terminally hurting me.
I think you can all agree to me that, Our Mother was the most precious gift we could ever have. Yes, sometimes I misbehave on her but I cannot keep the anger for long time.
I remember before, there is no day passing by without shouting happening inside our shelter. I mean at morning when you wake-up until the dinner. Hah, those kind of time when the only solution you can think is: 'I wanna go at far-far away and peace'.
I can admit, there comes a time that I'd wish her to be dead. I know, it was wrong, it was my pity.
Then last year, she passed away. Yes, i had a time that i think that was the one that can fulfilled me, but no, it was not.
I realized, no matter how bad she was, no matter what he did to turned me to wish that way is just improper. Now I take her my sorry.
As a fan of The Lord of the Rings. there is a quote that brings me to the understanding light of the moment.
Gandalf: "Many that live deserve death and some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be to eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends."
So wisdom, I can tear now haha.
Anyway here's a fact.
"Even the very happy person seek problems inside, he/she was just not that expressive." haha that's my quote :D
DONE.
